Smogarsbord

Whatever you know? This is all set. I'm going to Bandung at the end of the year visiting Mew who has just moved there with her husband. She says it is nice there, the beaches aren't Bali, but should I want to go Bali they'll take me.

I'll be lazying aorund their house for 3 months for my break, just having fun and helping out in the house of course. They'll even help find me some boys. I tell them to find one that has a lot of tattoos, because we all know guys like that will break your heart so I really don't have to anticipate or hope or anything. Hopefully I don't have to wake up in the middle of the night to hear them having sex. Mew tells me he's a raged beast between the sheets. Whatever.

Yesterday Mr CG gave me a call. He's in Johore, doing some crazy govermnet projects. He's shady looking a bit, haggard and having had lost a lot of sleep. He told me he misses me, but nothing's can be done. Things are compliocated once you get through the 3 months break. Nevertheless, I told him I miss him too, because it's true. He was the sexiest guy I've ever been with. Talking to him feel like having tantiric sex on the couch.

God, I should get dressed and head for lab.

What Have We

One of my friends got married to this guy I have never met. She is my bestfriend. I didn't go because I was embarassed because her birthday was 2 months back and I didn't call her and wish her a happy birthday. On her wedding night I looked through an album of us, it made me feel sad to know that now she cares about this man more than she will ever care about me.

I'm at the final semester of my school. Time for the big world, they say. I have been bumming around with Rijal, playing pool in smoke infested rooms, not talking to each other until the wee hours of the morning. In each other we find comfort, in each other I find the strength to be okay again.