so Much Closer

I've always known there's something seriously wrong with me.

This Eve 6 song goes, "So Cal is where my heart states,
But it's not my state of mind."

It's not my state of mind either. Nowhere is. Everytime I am ina dark hole, I managed to run away. Guess where I am right now.

Guess.
It's quite amazing, this place.

I'm at Sipadan Island. Fantastic sand, amazing sunsets. One time I cried because the sunset made me feel very lonely. I sat on top of a lone rock, wearing a disgutingly big straw hat, and as the setting sun happens, I blubbered all the way. It also has something to do with the fact that I hate nighttime. It makes me feel really really lonely.

They have cheap booze here. Just like to point that out. My friend Rohana is coming over. With her new boyfriend, who she's dying to show me. He seems like a nice guy. I hope.

I might be here for a while. I have anice gig to do to tide me until I get myself into another ditch and really have to ditch harhar