swiss knife

what can i say in four months that can be squeezed in four minutes. I am waiting for Sarah to get out lobster ready from the shop and then we are going to take the big guy to our fabulous shinding tonight! a barbeque to celebrate the one year anniversary of our fantastic motel.

it has been a great ride for the past year. I cannot believe time flies really fast. i mean it, really really fast. like it was only yesterday i was slaving away at my desk, doing the last thing i feel like doing. it is hard to believe that actually for some people, life do happen they way they want it to be. all it takes it some faith in yourself and hundred percent guts ans determination. i gather that those without guts live a quiet, safe life. well, it is not all that bad.

my brother and his wife gave birth to their second child, a boy with the hugest eyes ever!!! his name is Armin, and he's a cutie. i love him. mom emails me pictures, she came all the way from sydney to greet the newborn. Farah's jealous of the attention... its okay farah, i still love you.

i gtg. later@

corp

operation turtle conservation is going well. Last night we did some fun fund raising.. it was a success! Thank god it was in tandem with the school holidays, sarah and me didn't expect it to be, it was seriously just our luck that we chose such a nice date to have all these fun activities.

So far we have raised enough to provide some good base for the incoming turtles and all the neccesities needed for the pregsters (pregnant turtles.) I've never been so occupied and harrased at the same time. This is like MY project, all done by me, andI'm totally involved and it is keeping me really busy. I've never had this sense of purpose all in my life at all. I've also turned golden brown from all the sun.

Rijal called and asked me when I'm going back. I feel like I won't. Sipadan has made me very calm and focused. I love it here. He's coming in August for the see-in. I can't wait to see baby turtles!

Oh, and I'm also sort of hooking up with this fantastic man, Brick. He's on a 3 weeks break from work, and takes his scuba diving seriously. At night on the beach under seriously starry stars, he lifted me up just as he lifted those heavy tanks, I swooned like you wouldn't believe. Everything was good. I went to sleep under his very very warm body, and wake up the next day, unbathed and hair tangled, working. This is life as a PR for a domestic motel in one of the prettiest islands. I love it here.

Also, I didn't tell you how terribly wrecked I was when the coral reef was striped bare, thank to idiots that acted careless. It was awful.

And, I quit school. More likely I took a very very long brek. Mom's not happy. Brother's upset. But I am happy. I've done enough of statistic and electricity to last a lifetime. I don't need a scroll.

slut

yesterday I slept with someone.
We've been sleeping with each other for a couple of days now.
I don't know why I did that. Slept with him.

Regrets? No I don't think it's regrets. The sex were great. He was a great... everything.
I cried when he was on top of me. I miss azlan.it was just the right moment. he wason top of me, and i exploded.

anything i write down here might be too graphic anyways.

Woe

I miss him and I want to die.