vertigo lust
I haven't been able to write in here because I can't bring myself to.
The past few weeks have been wild. I mean that in the emotional sense. My boyfriend finally comes back from his production job and we got to spend some time together. Remember, this is the one that I had doubts about.
I arrived back home to find a nice bouquet of blue roses on the table where my housemate likes to eat her Maggi Kari while talking to her boyfriend. I was suprised, not because he wasn't the type to give flowers, but because I was the type that don't like romantic sentiments, and he knows it. But I reacted the way any other girl would.
I lifted the flowers up and sniffed them. They smelled lovely.
He came back last last Friday. We spend the weekends eating in and playing Xbox, where he beats me in everyone of his ridiculously stupid man games. I treated him to a nice face mask.
We didn't have sex. Although we could have. But the topic didn't come up. I wondered if he was getting some back where he works. I heard that things can get pretty wild in some production house. Being stuck with the same hot chicks day in and out. You'd have to be crazy not to be getting some pussy.
I wondered was it because of my refusal ages ago. I am a self-described prude, and yes they still exist and they are still living it out loud. It happened when I was at high school and was arguing with a friend about the values of a relationship when there's no sex involved, and had gotten so heated. A relationship can survive without sex, at least, until you're married. I believe in my religion, and just because I decided to wait doesn't make me any less of a typical modern KL girls.
I think the whole world's gotten crazy. Nowadays it's a blasphemy if you don't have makeout sessions or don't take illegal substances or drink and drive. No wonder people in religion are getting their brains fried. Especially the Arabs. You can painfully see their confusion.
Anyway, I don't do drugs or drink because I think it's not necessary. I don't get people who does, but I'm not vocal about it. I don't have sex because I value mental orgasm than anything else. But I still watch porn and have sexy conversations with my boyfriend. I think he took it real hard when I refused that night.
I was wearing a fucking Big Bird underwear.
Anyway on a Wednesday night we went out and had dinner and I suddenly felt horny. I haven't seen him for ages, and with all my doubts about the relationship it adds up to this whole lust. In the car in front of my house I gave him the biggest hickey ever. I'd never done that. In fact, kissing to us is special like the President's Birthday. I didn't know what hit me. He smelled wonderful and I love how hard his chest muscles get when I'm breathing down his neck.
As I got out of the car, I think I definitely did it because he was getting some sex at work. That'll do him.
The past few weeks have been wild. I mean that in the emotional sense. My boyfriend finally comes back from his production job and we got to spend some time together. Remember, this is the one that I had doubts about.
I arrived back home to find a nice bouquet of blue roses on the table where my housemate likes to eat her Maggi Kari while talking to her boyfriend. I was suprised, not because he wasn't the type to give flowers, but because I was the type that don't like romantic sentiments, and he knows it. But I reacted the way any other girl would.
I lifted the flowers up and sniffed them. They smelled lovely.
He came back last last Friday. We spend the weekends eating in and playing Xbox, where he beats me in everyone of his ridiculously stupid man games. I treated him to a nice face mask.
We didn't have sex. Although we could have. But the topic didn't come up. I wondered if he was getting some back where he works. I heard that things can get pretty wild in some production house. Being stuck with the same hot chicks day in and out. You'd have to be crazy not to be getting some pussy.
I wondered was it because of my refusal ages ago. I am a self-described prude, and yes they still exist and they are still living it out loud. It happened when I was at high school and was arguing with a friend about the values of a relationship when there's no sex involved, and had gotten so heated. A relationship can survive without sex, at least, until you're married. I believe in my religion, and just because I decided to wait doesn't make me any less of a typical modern KL girls.
I think the whole world's gotten crazy. Nowadays it's a blasphemy if you don't have makeout sessions or don't take illegal substances or drink and drive. No wonder people in religion are getting their brains fried. Especially the Arabs. You can painfully see their confusion.
Anyway, I don't do drugs or drink because I think it's not necessary. I don't get people who does, but I'm not vocal about it. I don't have sex because I value mental orgasm than anything else. But I still watch porn and have sexy conversations with my boyfriend. I think he took it real hard when I refused that night.
I was wearing a fucking Big Bird underwear.
Anyway on a Wednesday night we went out and had dinner and I suddenly felt horny. I haven't seen him for ages, and with all my doubts about the relationship it adds up to this whole lust. In the car in front of my house I gave him the biggest hickey ever. I'd never done that. In fact, kissing to us is special like the President's Birthday. I didn't know what hit me. He smelled wonderful and I love how hard his chest muscles get when I'm breathing down his neck.
As I got out of the car, I think I definitely did it because he was getting some sex at work. That'll do him.
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